Strong Heart On This One
I'm a self proclaimed serial dater.
And when I type that, it sounds bad - I almost judge myself.
I've gone through about four serious relationships and a handful of other, less noteworthy flings. Some end poorly, others were mutual. Some were my fault, others were theirs and some, neither person was to blame.
Even though I haven't found 'the one' yet and although so far, no man has stuck, I keep pursuing love with a ruthless vigor.
Each ended relationship leaves me knocked down and bruised, at least for a bit, but through them all, I keep pushing on and I keep fighting for a better love story in the future.
I've spent so much time analyzing why I keep going back to new relationships even though the ones before marked me with scars. Am I stupid? Do I need a man to validate me? These questions ring through my ears every time I contemplate my next date.
It's taken years, but I no longer let any validity to those questions settle in my core.
Desiring a healthy, loving, committed relationship that blossoms into a beautiful life with someone isn't wrong. Sometimes I pick the wrong guys, sure, but that's simply a result of seeing the best in people.
While some may see me as foolish (when will she learn her lesson?) the truth is that I'm fierce, I'm strong and I'm brave. To keep fighting for love even when it's left me scorned time and time again shows how courageous I really am.
That sounds prideful, but all I'm doing is choosing to fill my head with uplifting and empowering thoughts, rather than seeing my ended relationships as grave mistakes. Because they weren't, and never will be.
Each relationship taught me more about myself and what I desire in a partner and someday, some man will be grateful for each heart break I chose to power through... paving my way to him.